I love too many people who would never love me back.

Time

to move forward like a current

because going back isn’t an option

I’m starting to become okay with that

Nice to know you.

Goodbye.

I think..

you were actually trying to help me because you saw how pathetic I looked and felt bad for me.

I am positive that this band helps me survive.

(via myunderst4ndings)

One gift

If there is one gift I could ever fucking give myself it would be fucking Silence.

I need to give myself that.

It would do me a world of good.

Just pure fucking Silence.

Not a sound, not a cry, not a breath.

Silence.

I will drown myself in these lies that consume my mind

Seeping through every inch of my being

It is true what they say

‘The truth hurts’

I believe what it is that eats at me the most is how you view me

I wish I could even explain to myself why I care so much

It is purely a sick dream that is reoccuring

I wake up in the coldest fucking sweats

Knowing that everything is too fucking gone

I am a sad, pathetic girl just hating everything about myself

at least you feel the same way as I do

I can see it in your eyes

but

At least we both know that I am good for one thing

disgusting 

but true

and the truth does fucking hurt

like a thousand fucking knives ripping through my entire existance

through my entire fucking existance

it leaves me so hopeless 

Hopeless for nothing greater than this

It could never possibly get any better than this

I just wish I was more

Especially to you..

I will always expect to be less because of who I am

I will be content for now.. that hope turns into myself never hoping to be anything more to you because at least this is something

Something while being nothing

Empty.

I am empty.

and in my head all I hear is ” It doesn’t get much better than this kid.”

All I can do is fucking nod and take all this shit that i’ve created for myself

Maybe if I was someone different

Maybe if I looked different

Maybe if I talked different

Maybe if every single thing about me was different

Hello to another summer of feeling lost in a fucking world where I have no permanent home..

Stronger than last.. yeah i’ll admit that

Yes, I am fucking fine on the outside but on the inside I am trying so fucking hard to figure out why the fuck I torture myself with all of these thoughts, dreams, and endless questions.

Please just agree with me and tell me I am worthless to my face that is all I need to hear you say.

I know you are thinking it

fucking tell me

Please.

Sad

the more time that passes I have less and less to say

Sometimes I feel okay.

Maybe i’m always okay?

For if death was a sweet peaceful state of sleep that’s where i’d wanna be.

I have

major fucking issues and I just don’t see it getting any better

not even in a lets be negative sort of way

it is just my reality

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(via ladisputa)

Awkward?

I dream of donuts and you.

Probably as good as my dreams get?

Every time I get close enough to touch.. I wake up.

I hate that part.

"I once was in love, But love’s fucking blind."

I was such a fool.

I regret nothing.

That moment you know you did the right thing!

I hope

that bitch on the back burner treats you real good

but most likely you gon get fuckin burned

xoxo